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I've forgotten that laughing with a friend can make you feel less alone in this vast world, and that trite poems can renew you in a vulnerable moment.
Thursday, September 10, 2009!
Kum rant on; 10:31 PM
this post is dedicated to my dearest mummy!
happy happy bdae!
many thoughts are running through my mind now.
there aint enough time to capture it all.
and the exact same thoughts will not run through the brain twice.
so i took a deep breath in,
gathered my thoughts.
There are only few words to describe it all.
"My mom is simply great!"
I feels that e 2nd most blessed thing on earth is to be my mom's child!
(1st blessed is be God's child)
well... it's fortunate for me and unfortunate for her.
i dont know why;
i can be tolerant towards others but easily irritated at her.
i can spend much time with my frenz but only a few hrs a wk with her.
she prepares my b/f, washes my clothes and waits for me to be home each night before turnin in.
but not a word of thanks from me each day.
not a word of love.
i tink as a daughter i have taken her for granted.
this is not the moment of truth as I have realised it long time ago.
it's in my character that im impatient, rude and uncaring.
my attitude is bad and heart is unfeeling, i know it well.
and i have not hide it infront of my family members.
as home is not a place to be pretentious.
hence, they become my victims, esp my mom.
it's tough to be my mother.
raising us up single-handedly.
yet for now, i can only show my gratefulness by giving a meagre amount of allowance each month.
Mom, i hope to do better in the future!
future studies, get a better job and bring you overseas each yr!
it's time to enjoy life!:)
hmmm.. but this might be a few yrs later.
so for now, i can only wish u a happy blessed bdae!:)
oh ya. i ran my first ten km last sun.
wasnt my best as i couldnt feel my muscles working.
looking forward to more races to come!
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