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Saturday, September 19, 2009!
Kum rant on; 11:34 AM
It’s odd how that how answers from questions that intrigued us significantly are lost over such a short period of time.
I remembered it was only last year that we covered sermons on Christ death and resurrection, the Cross and many other topics that are relevant in evangelising and strengthening personal faith. However, when I was posted those exact same questions again, I’m loss for words. What was the concluded stand that I’ve made? I remember distinctly that I am satisfied with the final answers I’ve settled on but the answers do not come back confidently now.
I am :( that I have forgotten the process. :( that I’ve placed my focus wrongly by enjoying the feeling of debating and not remembering the end result. I am apologetic towards those who have spoon-fed me but I’m still as undernourished as ever.
Yesterday work was busy yet mundane. Was about to OT but glad that I need not, because cell group sharing yesterday was fruitful and refreshing! Each time without fail I will doze off during sharing. And I’ve expected more of it yesterday because I was mentally drained from work. However, I did not!
We covered questions on SIN. I have gotten irritated a few times by how they have placed the wrong focus on bible passages (E.g. because Adam and Eve broke God’s COMMAND, hence they sinned. Should they focus on the deed itself because it’s the original sin? God gave a lot of other commands e.g. the twelve commandments.) Or how they take biased stand towards God. Standard answers was for us to evangelise when I questions them on similar topics such as whether those who have yet to know Christ when they die are considered sinners because they have not but accept Christ. I was interested to find out what the adults’ answers are although I knew it myself. As a Christian, I can accept their “standard” answers but I know it will not convince the rest.
However, I am still thankful for the sharing yesterday because it reaffirms my understanding that our relationship with Christ is what is important. Thank God that I’m a Christian! I know that God will make the rightful judgement when the day comes. How do I know? Because I believe
I believe, to understand. Not understand, to believe.
Religion and faith is not like science, physics or mathematics whereby there is a definite way of yielding correct results through logic or systemic approach. It is like a traditional marriage, whereby the vows is to “To have and to hold from this day forward, for better for worse, for richer for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish, till death us do part." Except that death will reunites us with God, in Heaven.
Faith will not be smooth sailing, only to make us stronger with every obstacle we overcome together. Faith will not lead us to answers, but questions, questions and more questions. The deeper we go, the more difficult and darker it becomes, but there’ll be light at the end of the tunnel.And more importantly, it is meant to last.
In modern world, Religion is just like many trees in a forest, too many choices to choose from. Hope you pick the right seedling, take time and effort to groom it. Only then you will enjoy the fruits and its shelter in time to come. Don’t discard the seedling because it’s too difficult to grow or yield no result yet. Others may look easier, but the end result differs!