foreveralone.
I've forgotten that laughing with a friend can make you feel less alone in this vast world, and that trite poems can renew you in a vulnerable moment.
Saturday, January 12, 2008!
Kum rant on; 11:25 AM
exhausted.
i can literally count the nos. of hours i sleep these few days.
im stressed with the amt of proj
and frustrated wif myself.
why can't i just do e right thing?
doing activities that rob me of my time for proj
Peiming's event, CYA and church captain ball game
and goin for trainings that i cant really do anything.
many blazerians would say..
u can always do this and that wat...
just come for training
but no one can understand.
wanted to learn what they are trying on thur.
basing Fazaeh.
was being polite by asking for permission
all i get was two uncertain ans.
two indirect rejection
and eventually i need to ask coach
ask coach whether i can train.
yup, ask coach whether i can train.
funny rite.
so called reserve for flyer
tat's just a title
i can only learn from e side
watch from the side, if i really want to learn
do u know im cryin now?
to be truthful,
i admire haqiz.
to be able to come trainin so cheerfully everyday.
i was relieved when i wasnt chosen for nationals.
so i wld be so stressed.
but i didnt know it will deprive me e chance to train.
emotionally hurt, physically tired, mentally stressed.
im just goin to let it go.
what for go trainin,
when i cant train.
and only make me myself feel worse
but not improving
and see others improving.
if i dun come for trainin,
i can give execuse such as proj
but u know,
the reason is not it.