foreveralone.
I've forgotten that laughing with a friend can make you feel less alone in this vast world, and that trite poems can renew you in a vulnerable moment.
Friday, December 21, 2007!
Kum rant on; 10:12 PM
I agree with my sister.
Indeed, this year's church camp is great.
great in a different way.
there wasnt so much fun as expected...
partially becoz i wasnt enthu enuf or wat.
but den i learn many great lessons.
esp fr pastor Siow Hwee.
esp. fr the sharing.
this camp i can say is the most benefical!
but den im different fr my sis.
this camp has not lightened any of my heart burdens.
i feel so lost.
what kind of Christian have i been this past eighteen years?
knowing nothing about church history..
who's our founders?
i just took whatever the pastor gave.
and keep less den 10% of it.
i would fail badly as a Christian,
just like how i'd fail my cheerleading coach cert.
im like the parables of the sower.
matthew chpt 13. 7.
seeds fell among the thorns.
i hear the word,
but the worries of this life and e deceitfulness of wealth coke it,
making it unfruitful.
Indeed,
i have too worries now.
can't meet proj deadlines.
commitments.
i feel so anti-people nowadays.
but i know that the main problem is not the above.
there's two main focus of my life now.
should i choose cheerleading or God as my main focus?
the answer is clear...
and i pray that i'll stand firm.