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I've forgotten that laughing with a friend can make you feel less alone in this vast world, and that trite poems can renew you in a vulnerable moment.
Friday, October 19, 2007!
Kum rant on; 1:26 PM
timetable is out.
i wan to thank God!
im always fortunate to get gd timetables:)
THank you!
And.. i have decided not to go to work anymore.
until the 27 & 28 oct just to give out flyer.
Tp rawks perf on 15 nov.
im sad that i'll miss my culinary lesson.
and im not sure whether i can put up a gd perf.
Today's bb ball match.
actually i dun really feel like goin:(
coz i really got alot of things to do.
i rejected working at a banquet - $7/hr,
i could hav use e time to do my CYA duty roster or print notes..
but den..
there's already so little ppl.
so i should.. just go n show my support.
since i cant really do anything much for Blazers.
looking at frances and chengyee..
rushing over even though they are working.
also, i dun wan to disappoint felicia by not goin to e match:P
so i've decided ... to go since wed.
hopefully, it will brightened my mood.
it's rainin now.
everywhere.
the weather..
and my heart.
sigh ~
i just wan say that im terribly sorrie everyone.
to peiming,
you are such a gd base/flyers.
but den our stunts always cant go up.
tat prove how lousy i am...
i hope your thigh are okie.
to sam, lynna and serene
although we are the senior team.
but we always progress the slowest.
i hate myself for being a bad flyer.
despite one and a half sem of training..
i still cant do a gd pop yet.
im sorrrie.
to Blazers,
im sorrie if i hav slowed u guys down.
to coach,
you kept giving me chances.
but i duno how to treasure it.
im sorrie.
to e seniors,
thanks for all e patience and guidance.
im sorrie that i always disppoint you guys.
after many apologises..
i also wan to thank Ken and minmin.
ken.. thanks for e msg.
although it's simple,
it's encouraging.
Thank you!
huimin,
thanks for listening to me.
and being there for me when i cried.
i tink i'll hav quit Blazers long time ago if it's not for you.
coz im just so lousy.
if i really happens to quit..
it's not tat i dun like cheerleading or wat anymore.
it'll be at e point where i feel my existance will just pull the team down.
where im too disappointed wif myself.
but i know you'll kill me if i do.
and i cant bear to leave Blazers the happy family:)
i think i must hav been too tired.
i walked home ydae..
w/o realising i'd reached home.
my legs just carried me.
and my body still aches very much fr tue's training.
over the weekend, i promise
i'll give myself a gd rest.
find my energy back.
and relook at my life again.
next trainin i hope you see a better me.
in spirit and in perf.
i tink i felt sad and cried too many times this week.
i shld stop it.
i will stop it.
dun wry. i'll pick myself up.