foreveralone.
I've forgotten that laughing with a friend can make you feel less alone in this vast world, and that trite poems can renew you in a vulnerable moment.
Sunday, October 14, 2007!
Kum rant on; 9:14 PM
this is my life
i finally know what does silence means in my life now.
im of no importance.
no dependence.
and an annoyance.
this is my picture
Being lonely is my destiny.
trees are my faithful companions.
coz only they can make me feel relaxed.
i finally found the reason why i like to run so much...
i finally found the reason why no matter how tired i am...
i wld still wan to run around bedok reservior.
because...
only when being alone, i can be myself.
only when panting hard, i can feel myself.
im real.
i want to thank God for the nature.
and i've decided.. i like silence.
to my dear dongseng...
i duno whether you are goin thru a hard time now.
i hope you are not.
but i duno why my heart feels very burdened and heavy.
i tink is becoz of u.
but be happi:)
coz you still hav us around:)
i just want to tell ya that i'd always envy you.
havin such a gd fren like joy.
having such a best fren like mark.
i guess they never asked me out unless you are in it too.
and i only blame myself..
coz im a loner.. and i dun spend quality time wif them too.
so im never really part of anything.
and when mummy wish finally came true..
the first person you told is peiming.
well.. i cant help but feel abit sad.
coz if that happens to me...
i tink the first person i look for is you.
coz i'll wan to cry in your arms.
but thinking again..
im not so much of importance.
mayb u didnt even wan a comforting hug fr me.
mayb we r not as close as I tink.
i do not want to change anything
do not try to change anything.
coz everything are meant to be this way.
im goin to leave this post abit longer so you can read:P
since you didnt get it the last post.
and i found out that jun and i hav more and more similarities..
thinking negatively and being tired are part of our lifes.