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I've forgotten that laughing with a friend can make you feel less alone in this vast world, and that trite poems can renew you in a vulnerable moment.
Saturday, September 22, 2007!
Kum rant on; 11:35 PM
my mind and body is like disjointed nowadays.
at work.. i keep typin e wrong stuff...
and cause my company to lose quite a few bucks.
durin trainings. .. my mouth does not speak what my mind thinks.
sigh~
i tink i worked too much already.
although i have self-proclaimed two days off per wk.
I WANT TO SPEND TIME PARTYIN TIS HOLIDAY!
not workin.
sian..
but for finanical sake.. i shall continue to work.
today xams play dicussion is gd!
gd to hav u guys around!
anyway.. i feel weird for ppl to ask...
" What about your sister?"
yes.. my sis got a bf.
but what has it got to do with me?
just becoz we r twins.
it doesnt means we need to have bf at e same time.
or i'll be left all alone..
become a pitiful soul or watever.
i still got my life
and she has hers.
she's forever be my dear sis.
although i admit im abit sad.
coz she cant spend as much time wif me now.
actually i didnt wan to blog abt this.
but den i shall just blog it anyway...
today when i was sleepin on mummy's bed..
u lie besides me and we chatted.
i forgt what we talked about.
but den i felt so sad all a sudden.
i was fightin back my tears while talkin to you.
mayb u didnt notice.
we are so close.
but i felt i lost u for tat moment.
i have always know tat we cant stay so close together for long.
down the road in ten yr's time..
mayb we will start formin our own family...
have our own career.
den our lifes will be separated.
when u got together wif larry.
i was tinkin it'll be cool for me to get a bf too.
so we can go on couple dates.
but i tink im just comfortin myself
i didnt realise how much it wld hurt.
it's like losing a very best fren.
i tot i am well prepared for it already.
but apparently.. it was insuffient.
everything just happened so fast. too soon.
i cant tell u in person im sad..
coz i dun wan to know ur reaction.
but den im glad u r happy.
coz i can see u two really cares abt each other.
anyway.. to ans everyone's once and for all..
i wldnt get a bf so soon okie.
im dead tired handling work, xmas play, cheerleading.
does not even hav enuf time for my dear mommy..
and tat CYA work is comin up soon.
i wldn't tire myself out by gettin a bf.
i duno how my sis manage to handle so many things.
but im no as pro as her.
and not as attractive too.
yupp.. so gd buai.
and pls understand me if i ask weird qns to u these few days.
coz im too tired.
and my mind has gone on a holiday.
e temp staff are as lousy as me.