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I've forgotten that laughing with a friend can make you feel less alone in this vast world, and that trite poems can renew you in a vulnerable moment.
Friday, August 31, 2007!
Kum rant on; 1:14 PM
went job interview with cass ydae.
Fivestar is only offering 900 bucks for the first "trainin" mth...
and i need to work 6 days x 8 hrs x 4 wks.
after some simple calculations,
is like less den 5 buck per hr?
which includes being late for trainings...
the time to travel and the travelin dist.
hiaz.
but i tink the job is still worth goin for...
becoz it's e job experience tat matters:)
And i got a travelin partner and someone to talk too!
cassandra!
hahas:)
after the interview.
i went to bedok to look for e food store my mom's talked abt..
or e convenient shop my mei told me.
but the search is futile.
gave up the search eventually.
and bought pocky biscuits to comfort myself .
went sch.
and ran one round bedok reservior.
i took another route instead of the usual one.
and made some discovery!
hahas. not goin to tell u guys.
but i'll post up!
so here are the pics of the day!
after running.. it's only 5pm.
so i continued readin Susan Elizabeth Phillips.
fantastic book which is very fun, sexy and touchin.
i chiong finish the book frm 12am to2.30am ydae.
hahas!
i love e twist and turn.
after my camp.. i shall borrow more.
so at six... my cheer mates came along.
im very disappointed wif my perf.
cant seems to do anything rite.
esp. e stunts.
and i want to very much tell ivan.
ivan.. you are not weak. it's me.
my techniques and mentality.
i dun wan to demoralize him when it's not his fault
or i'll feel really bad.
and i was thinkin..
if i didnt get into e nationals team..
i tink i will accept the fact with a good heart.
i dun deserve it since other flyers are improvin so much faster den me.
esp. joy.
im sorry tat i had to reject the 8 girls team perf.
im tired of being part of everything..
esp comin for ALL trainings..
and not see myself improvin.
i just need time to get away fr cheerleadin. temporary.
and sort out my goals.
mayb if i concentrate on other things like work.
i'll appreciate cheerleadin more.
and push myself harder.
but first.. mayb i need to get rid of e mentality tat i sucks.
or tat i need to lose weight to be a gd flyer.
coz it's all abt techniques.
and how much i wants it.