foreveralone.
I've forgotten that laughing with a friend can make you feel less alone in this vast world, and that trite poems can renew you in a vulnerable moment.
Tuesday, July 31, 2007!
Kum rant on; 11:36 PM
this is just a random post.
be4 i write my script for tml presentation.
before i watch anime HellGirl at 12am
den do my accounts tut or revise for geogtravel.
so i guess im sleepin late AGAIN!
fell asleep in lecture today
it was kinda of boring.
my fren beside me saw it and laughed.
ya. typical huiting rite?
And i ate quite alot of junk today.
for lunch.. i ate Design's malay rice.
And went to sugarloaf for coffee cake, sticky bun and mud slide cookie.
although im like sick.
but i just love eating.
spent alot of $$ on food when im supposed to save it to repay some debts.
den i felt really sick after tat.
went home n slept when i'd planned to stay in cyber centre to chiong projs.
woke up n ate smthg again.
read some geogtravel materials be4 i fell asleep again.
woke up on time to go cheerleadin.
my perf was a disappointment.
was in lab wif my proj grp mates today..
duno wat we talked abt when i say..
" There are times which i really HATED myself.
Like it happens at once a year.
And now this is e period of time for me"
they were like saying "WHy..."
I'd never hate myself.
ya.. why do i feel this way?
i makes me realise smthg.
every time i feel this way ..
i wld really hope God to gimme some spiritual uplift or wat.
but of coz.. it doesnt really happens.
coz i dun pray for it.
den i will like to immerse myself in doin alot of stuff
so it will tire me out.
den i will just fall sick n hopefully drop D**d.
but why is my mentality like tat?!?
totally unacceptable.
i have nice fren. gd family members. comfortable envt...
i shld just learn to appreciate it n live life to e fullest.
not self pity or destroy myself.
hiaz.
im just a person wif bad life principals, no faith and sucky attitudes.