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Saturday, September 23, 2006!
Kum rant on; 12:50 AM
today e suntec party's attendance was overwhelming.
expected only half e hall be filled.
like e previous welcum party.
but today all e seats were filled.
there were even people standing up
n sitting on e steps.
there were just so many ppl!!!
& e worst part was tt i need to give a speech.
i turned back fr my seat
to see how filled was e hall.
& tt's when i really gt a shock in my life.
was trembling when i went up.
& while givin e speech i felt numb.
but i guess no one can really understand my feelings.
coz none of my stewarding frenz said anything to me
no congrats.. u did fine.
or u sucks.
they said nothing.
like silent protest.
after e speech hav ended
they were like pretending im not there.
until i make moves to prove my presence.
they dun like me?
or they dun like me giving e speech?
it was supposed to be yongkang.
everyone tot so.
but i really duno y i was chosen.
i dun wan to be chosen.
n i know i dun deserve it to be up der givin a speech
on behalf of e stewarding experience.
was tt e reason y they avoided me?
or im being too sensitive.
but im sure if yongkang was up der
instead of me
everyone who surely congrats him on a job well done.
it was not worth it.
in exchange for a bk.
for my stewarding fren to be cold to me
or was it my character problem?
my other TP frenz & e steward supervisiors told me tt i did fine
well.. at least i did better den i'd expected.
i was hopin smone could translate my script into chinese.
as most of e suntec stewards r chinese.
so sorri i didnt manage to do it.
i just sucks lah.
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after e event i met up wif serene..
(serene is e best! was always der to give me support no matter wat event)
we went shoppin for her shoes.
n was late for e meetin wif e rest of e CSC members n frenz.
to go to e yellow ribbion concert.
but we wasn't e latest.
=P
met chee meng.
huiying's cousin.
my esss senior.
he know me.
i duno him.
coz im a prefect in sch.
but we gt along well=)
& i found out tt he is very similar to my church fren Glenn.
e incident where i duno e person
but he know me
happened to me e 2nd time.
first it was shao hwee..
now it's Chee meng.
somehow being a prefect in esss gt me famous.
n i only realise it after i gt out of esss.
up till now.. it has been a gd thing
coz all e esss seniors i met r gd ppl=)
or mayb i gt tis common face.
coz my fren say tt i look familiar to him
of coz..
my sis is also in TP.
so e chance of gettin to see me in sch
is "twice" higher.
but well...
im just a common girl.
so i guess it's common for me to meet ppl.