foreveralone.
I've forgotten that laughing with a friend can make you feel less alone in this vast world, and that trite poems can renew you in a vulnerable moment.
Sunday, August 21, 2005!
Kum rant on; 5:14 PM
yesterady mi wasnt feeling well.. so slept e whole dae. one sat wasted like tt. sad. didnt do hmwk or revision. hiazz. den went over to my uncle hse for a swim. felt veri relax and my sickness sunddenly all gone. hahas. went for dinner at 9pm n walked home. on e way in t mart i met zahira, jinshu n quite alot of east springians. hmm.. all went there to study which made mi feel more guilty. haizz. duno y i dun hav e sense of ugency to study although prelims starting veri soon. sometimes i hate myself .. maybe for being so slack. although e body ish mine.. i cant control it. tis whole wk i had been watching tv. ( _ . _ ) . didnt study. n it's not like my study veri gd.. it's bullshit like hell. so y? wat's wrong wif mi? am i going to fail my o level like tt? help mi sm1. n todae went to church. the sermon is on wat's e purpose of your life? i tink im still searching bah. moving aimlessly now. haiz. suddenly find my life so meaningless. full of crap. i lived becoz i was born. not becoz i wan to make a difference in my life or other's people life.