foreveralone.
I've forgotten that laughing with a friend can make you feel less alone in this vast world, and that trite poems can renew you in a vulnerable moment.
Friday, June 17, 2005!
Kum rant on; 12:40 PM
todae im stayin at hm all dae. hiazz.. bOring! sian! the only thing I can look forward is to watch extreme makeover and anime at night. ya noe..im an anime lover. only thru anime i can dream..i'll feel veri calm and relaxed though i dunno y..tt's y i'll catch every episode no matter wat becoz my hse dun hav DVD player..i could not watch anime fr dvd den. and if sm1 disturbs mi when im watchin anime..like if my mom ask mi to sleep or wat..i'll lose my temper! well..but usually im too engrossed in watchin so i dun really hear her or anythin..den my mom'll be angry..hahaz.well..in case ya duno..fr every wed to fri...2300 to 2400..channel 5 will be showing inuyasha and shaman king.Muz watch!.
Todae is the last dae of the 3rd wk of holidays..sigh~. haven't realli done the hmwk except eng(becoz it was the easiest). still gt many sets of maths testpapers and the whole of two tys not done yet. suddenly feel so depressed.i can concentrate well only for a very short period of time.tt's y im always far behind in my wk.well..who cares anyway.since goin to 3e1.. i learn to.. erm ..to dun care abt everything or u end up hurtin urself.if u r in 4e1.. if i have hurt u in the past.. with my mean words or actions.. sry okie. i was just protectin myself. 'The walls we build around us to keep out the sadness also keep out the joy.' tt's true for mi.i find myself losing my cheerfulness and real smiles. now there's onli fake smiles.. pretendin to be happy coz tt's the way to maintain frenship in 4e1 i supposed. i find 4e1 (mostly chinese) veri self-centred..so many clicks..duno wat for. cant we be 4eva as one? ironic. haha. tt's y im always wif the malay gerls and jasmine. i dun really have to watch my wds in front of them..and be 'normal?'. if i would to join any clicks.. and speak smthg wrong.. i may end up like ***. .u noe hu. gossipin target. well. .maybe not getting too involve in my cls is kinda of gd too. left 6 more mths..no, 5 more mths..and im out. (sry if i spolit any of ur mood)
well.. im not really tt pathetic too.. i'd gt my church frenz!they r really a great bunch of fun and nice ppl. they dun gossip. they dun speak ill of ppl. im realli comfortable wif them.. and really be hu i im. only den my real smiles and laughter will be back. yahoo! maybe becoz they r all of different age tt the immature beome more mature and the unkind becum kind. tt's y i always look foward to sundaes.. not only can i know more abt God but also be 2gether wif my true frenz.. plae (guys and girls) netball after the service and let out all my unhappiness.. and after the dae ends.. i'll look forward to the next sundae again.